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Day 364-360

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Full of life together with my family, it is hard to contemplate any sense of departing from this world. If we are in good health, there is hardly any reason to contemplate dying. A few responsibilities crept in while we had a great time with everyone. We went to see Mom and Dad's financial advisor.If we can no longer make sound decisions and we give others power of attorney, we need to let them know our intention. My father keeps many accounts for diversification. The advisor said that one of the toughest things children are faced with is from where to draw money in the event of a crisis. Intertwining into someone else's finances is like marriage. I have just begun to learn what my parents wishes are. If I myself were dying with only 360 days to live, I could not carry out or be named as someone to help take care of parents' wishes.
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Day 364- Life is great. I forgot to post yesterday because it was Christmas Eve 2018. Death wasn't at all on my mind as we enjoyed time with Carolyn and Alen. In reading David Loy's book on Buddhism, the present is eternal and timeless. Yesterday's present was filled with hugs and singing. "Puppety pup pup, puppety pup pup, look at doggie go. Puppety pup pup, puppety pup pup over the wind and snow." Nobody wants to leave the magical, child like moments with family where we are suspended in this eternity.
Day 365-A hospice Doula taught me that to live fully, we must practice how to die. This should not be feared, but embraced as a way to master our mortality. This blog is dedicated to the practice of appreciating our finite existence.  What would I do if I had only 365 days to live? Let us explore. Learn how to be present. Much of my remaining life will not be experienced if I am continuously distracted from appreciating this present moment. Being present means asserting what I have to offer, listening to others and being heard.  At this point, there is much to do so that I don't leave others with the burden of cleaning up after me. This time we have is similar to hiking in the woods. I want to leave no trace so that others can enjoy the woods after me.